Acceptance

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I started this blog with the intention “to see.” I sensed that I needed to better ground myself in the present moment by looking at things. My chosen medium quickly became the camera on my iPhone and my garden in spring and summer provided ample inspiration.

But around September, I found I didn’t want to take pictures anymore. The shorter days gave me less viable light, but, more importantly, my focus had shifted inward to a sticky concept. I’ve been wrestling with it ever since.

I’ve always distrusted the idea. As someone who is always striving to learn more, see more, BE more, acceptance has been an anathema. But then I came to learn that acceptance is really only seeing a situation as it is, free of your judgements of how it should be. Free of the story you want to tell yourself about why it’s that way. Free of fear.

Perhaps that’s why Instagrammed images have lost their appeal. (For the time being anyway.) I’m challenged with seeing things as they are, and not trying to change them or explain them away. To accept. And only then to move forward.